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October 31 2009
October 26 2009
October 21 2009
October 20 2009
I'm an Alpha Female:)
You Are an Alpha Female 
Powerful, confident, and successful - you are definitely a dominant force.
You control social and dating situations. It’s clear that you’re always in charge. Are You an Alpha Female? Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity
October 19 2009
October 18 2009
Quiz: What kind of book are you?
You Are Fantasy / Sci Fi
You have an amazing imagination, and in your mind, all things are possible.
You are open minded, and you find the future exciting. You crave novelty and progress.
Compared to most people, you are quirky and even a bit eccentric. You have some wacky ideas.
And while you may be a bit off the wall, there’s no denying how insightful and creative you are. What Kind of Book Are You? Blogthings: If Quizzes Are Outlawed, Only Outlaws Will Take Quizzes
Quiz: What kind of book are you?
You Are Fantasy / Sci Fi
You have an amazing imagination, and in your mind, all things are possible.
You are open minded, and you find the future exciting. You crave novelty and progress.
Compared to most people, you are quirky and even a bit eccentric. You have some wacky ideas.
And while you may be a bit off the wall, there's no denying how insightful and creative you are.
October 12 2009
October 09 2009
October 02 2009
Losing yourself
When you lose your job you lose so much more than "just" the money. At first, when I lost my job, there were many practical things to deal with. Since I live in a very bureaucratic country one of my first tasks was to fill in forms and collect certificates that had to be delivered to the right addresses. The job center, the union etc. I had to prove that I was really unemployed, that I didn't have any hidden income and that I was able and "willing" to "take" a job. Willing - of course I was willing, otherwise I would starve. Starvation feeds willingness. And to "take" a job - of course I would be happy to "take" any job that was offered to me, but after applying to more jobs than I can remember it's obvious that no one will.
It's not only the financial part that gets you down. When you have to think about if you can take that bus or if you can't because you need to buy groceries and pay the bills. What also happens is that you risk losing yourself. You tend to keep to yourself so you won't have to answer the traditional questions or respond when people take things for granted.
"What do you DO all day?"
What do they think? Applying for jobs of course. Trying to find ways to cut costs. Baking and cooking to stay alive on a budget.
"Of course there are jobs if you want them." Sure there are jobs, but since I'm not the only one who's lost my job, there's a lot of us wanting a job. If there are 400 applicants for one position, you can do "everything" right and still not even get asked to come to an interview.
Another question that seems innocent, but that hurts a lot is 'What do you do? - meaning 'what kind of work do you do?'. I never felt that I WAS my job. What I worked with had nothing to do with who I was. But people do make that connection and when you don't have a job you stop being someone. From one day to another I went from being someone to being nothing.
I once had someone comment on my blog, telling me I should stop whining, get myself an education and get a job. I'm sure he was convinced that I was fresh out of school, too lazy to get an education. And that I was lazy and didn't want a job. At that time I had only been unemployed for about 2 weeks. I answered that and told him that I had been working in the same place since 1999. If I was so lazy, how come I had been working there for so long?
And as for getting an education - I'm sure I had a much better education than he did. Apart from my BA, I have read other subjects at the university as well other types of courses. He never answered me in my blog and didn't approve my comment in his blog. His comment says so much about how people in general view those who have lost their jobs. We're lazy, we don't want to "take" a job and we have been too lazy to get an education. And when someone challenges their opinions, their world view, if you like, they just stay away, nursing their own version of the truth.
The worst part, though, is that after a while, you start believing in those other people. Not about being lazy, I know I'm not. And not about not having an education, A quick look through my CV tells me that's not right. But that I'm a nobody, a nonperson. And I 'm afraid that other people will think so. I seem to find proof of that everyday. Other people are so wrapped up in their own worlds that they won't see me anymore. No one calls, emails or keeps in touch. And when I don't even get an acknowledgement from companies where I've applied for jobs, then it does seem to confirm that their image of me is true. I have lost myself.
Losing yourself
When you lose your job you lose so much more than “just” the money. At first, when I lost my job, there were many practical things to deal with. Since I live in a very bureaucratic country one of my first tasks was to fill in forms and collect certificates that had to be delivered to the right addresses. The job center, the union etc. I had to prove that I was really unemployed, that I didn’t have any hidden income and that I was able and “willing” to “take” a job. Willing - of course I was willing, otherwise I would starve. Starvation feeds willingness. And to “take” a job - of course I would be happy to “take” any job that was offered to me, but after applying to more jobs than I can remember it’s obvious that no one will.
It’s not only the financial part that gets you down. When you have to think about if you can take that bus or if you can’t because you need to buy groceries and pay the bills. What also happens is that you risk losing yourself. You tend to keep to yourself so you won’t have to answer the traditional questions or respond when people take things for granted.
“What do you DO all day?”
What do they think? Applying for jobs of course. Trying to find ways to cut costs. Baking and cooking to stay alive on a budget.
“Of course there are jobs if you want them.” Sure there are jobs, but since I’m not the only one who’s lost my job, there’s a lot of us wanting a job. If there are 400 applicants for one position, you can do “everything” right and still not even get asked to come to an interview.
Another question that seems innocent, but that hurts a lot is ‘What do you do? - meaning ‘what kind of work do you do?’. I never felt that I WAS my job. What I worked with had nothing to do with who I was. But people do make that connection and when you don’t have a job you stop being someone. From one day to another I went from being someone to being nothing.
I once had someone comment on my blog, telling me I should stop whining, get myself an education and get a job. I’m sure he was convinced that I was fresh out of school, too lazy to get an education. And that I was lazy and didn’t want a job. At that time I had only been unemployed for about 2 weeks. I answered that and told him that I had been working in the same place since 1999. If I was so lazy, how come I had been working there for so long?
And as for getting an education - I’m sure I had a much better education than he did. Apart from my BA, I have read other subjects at the university as well other types of courses. He never answered me in my blog and didn’t approve my comment in his blog. His comment says so much about how people in general view those who have lost their jobs. We’re lazy, we don’t want to “take” a job and we have been too lazy to get an education. And when someone challenges their opinions, their world view, if you like, they just stay away, nursing their own version of the truth.
The worst part, though, is that after a while, you start believing in those other people. Not about being lazy, I know I’m not. And not about not having an education, A quick look through my CV tells me that’s not right. But that I’m a nobody, a nonperson. And I ‘m afraid that other people will think so. I seem to find proof of that everyday. Other people are so wrapped up in their own worlds that they won’t see me anymore. No one calls, emails or keeps in touch. And when I don’t even get an acknowledgement from companies where I’ve applied for jobs, then it does seem to confirm that their image of me is true. I have lost myself.
Losing yourself
It's not only the financial part that gets you down. When you have to think about if you can take that bus or if you can't because you need to buy groceries and pay the bills. What also happens is that you risk losing yourself. You tend to keep to yourself so you won't have to answer the traditional questions or respond when people take things for granted.
"What do you DO all day?"
What do they think? Applying for jobs of course. Trying to find ways to cut costs. Baking and cooking to stay alive on a budget.
"Of course there are jobs if you want them." Sure there are jobs, but since I'm not the only one who's lost my job, there's a lot of us wanting a job. If there are 400 applicants for one position, you can do "everything" right and still not even get asked to come to an interview.
Another question that seems innocent, but that hurts a lot is 'What do you do? - meaning 'what kind of work do you do?'. I never felt that I WAS my job. What I worked with had nothing to do with who I was. But people do make that connection and when you don't have a job you stop being someone. From one day to another I went from being someone to being nothing.
I once had someone comment on my blog, telling me I should stop whining, get myself an education and get a job. I'm sure he was convinced that I was fresh out of school, too lazy to get an education. And that I was lazy and didn't want a job. At that time I had only been unemployed for about 2 weeks. I answered that and told him that I had been working in the same place since 1999. If I was so lazy, how come I had been working there for so long?
And as for getting an education - I'm sure I had a much better education than he did. Apart from my BA, I have read other subjects at the university as well other types of courses. He never answered me in my blog and didn't approve my comment in his blog. His comment says so much about how people in general view those who have lost their jobs. We're lazy, we don't want to "take" a job and we have been too lazy to get an education. And when someone challenges their opinions, their world view, if you like, they just stay away, nursing their own version of the truth.
The worst part, though, is that after a while, you start believing in those other people. Not about being lazy, I know I'm not. And not about not having an education, A quick look through my CV tells me that's not right. But that I'm a nobody, a nonperson. And I 'm afraid that other people will think so. I seem to find proof of that everyday. Other people are so wrapped up in their own worlds that they won't see me anymore. No one calls, emails or keeps in touch. And when I don't even get an acknowledgement from companies where I've applied for jobs, then it does seem to confirm that their image of me is true. I have lost myself.
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